In just a few moments I will be dead
I killed myself because I felt bad
Like Diane Arbus like the guy in France
Who put a stick of dynamite in his head
Life is so sad sometimes it is hard to keep going
And when you compare yourself to everybody
It gets even harder

And then sometimes when you don't know how to talk at all
Then that's bad too
We need to be enjoying life
Out there partying
Having a good time all the time
Yeah, here we are outgoing outgoing outgoing
And outgoing and it's fun
Yeah I like that too I would
But I don't really have.....
I just ramble on about nothing the same time all the time
And then I want love and affection
I want it all to be erased from my head
erased from my head erased from my head
I want it all erased from my....
but I don't know why
I'm just saying the same things
Putting words out that have gone in
itsammmmyienyammmmmm
It's a toaster inside
And you are
#$%$^#$^
yeah I'm fine

In just a few moments I will be dead
In just a few moments I had to let you know about that again
Because unless you would maybe forget about it
That would be un ---- nnnnnnnnnn
Cause maybe I would be ....and then
I would just end up in Uruguay or somewhere like that
Uruguay Uruguay ummm
I could never try to be the same person again
I'd probably become a similar person
Anyway...down there
So I'm just on and on here
Maybe it's a silly thing to think you might be interested
And it's just ongoing cause I am outgoing
On going

Oh yeah! We can have so many conversations and friends
And not talk about anything that is of any importance
And never say anything to anyone that I really feel
And then if I did try then it might be the end
It might be the end and that may be fine

And so I'm just saying that in a few moments I will be dead
And now I'm going to stop talking and I'm going to play..........

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It's good to be social sometimes
Or whatever they mean by social
By being social
And the other things
That people would like to be
We can get together and just try
Adventures
Oh, it's an adventure
Here we are on an adventure

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How many people can you really talk to at all
And what's the point of really trying?
To get out there and do anything
If you can't talk to anyone about anything at all
Really at all really at all ever ever
Why why?
What do they want?
What do they want?
They just don't want to talk about anything at all
Cause maybe the first thing that you say is that you think they are Despicable, disgusting people but you want them to stick around
Because you actually don't think that
It's just there's something about them that pisses you off
And you just want them to know
But it doesn't actually piss you off
It's just the fact that you feel bad
And the things people do influence the things that you think about
And they then could be said to make you feel bad
But they don't really at all
And so the first thing that you say to them is that you want to kill them
And the first thing you also think to yourself
When you say that you want to kill them
Is that you love them so deep in your heart
And you never told them that
And that for you being near them is like watching the best of art
Even better perhaps than that

And when you come to tell them this
Then maybe they will hold you in their hands
But there really isn't much time
So it doesn't really matter what you say to them
Perhaps you could say it all in a glance
Or maybe it's just impossible
Maybe there's no point to trying
Maybe there's no way anyone will ever know

And so in a few moments I will be dead